again, one of my relatives passed away two days ago. im not really related to her, but that she's my grandma's sister. so far right, but nvm. it was like, i went to her house since young every chinese new year. that time, she was damn fit, still strong and able to walk. later, she was to sit in a wheelchair, and had difficulty talking. and just this year, she was lying on a mattress, and her body looked as thin as paper, and im not kidding. her family wasnt even clear what she wants. she cant talk, but with some simple gestures, my aunties knew wad she was thinking and wad she want to do. but her family was like ignoring her, and just said she tired la, can you all pls go out.
and now, im going to her funeral later on, just an hour later.
life's just so cruel. so why i are we born, to be tortured just like that, and die later on. this is total meaningless.
i'll do wadeva i can now. just to be sure that i wont regret when im older. backsomer, back hollow, what's so frightening? i'll just give it a shot, and soon, i believe i will conquer my fear.
&still trying to find a happy ending